I've Always Wanted to
view my life from the outside. Like it's a movie. I want my streaming thought process to be the overlying narration and my mixes to provide the soundtrack.
I don't know. I'D watch it.
Speaking of watching movies about myself, I watched a home video a couple of months ago of a much younger Christmas, and boy was I annoyingly articulate. It's one of those cases where I needed public schooling to smooth out the kinks, if you know what I mean.
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i've always thought this too
until i heard Donald Miller speak
on the concept of "Story" and what
makes good characters and bad ones
-protagonists and antagonists-
-heroes and villians-
and i decided that really i don't
want to see myself as a main character. i'm not a hero. if all our actions were captured on camera - those tragic moments in high school, the really poor choices in college, our day-to-day ugliness.... i wouldn't want to see myself like that.
and i think the desire to see a movie of ourselves really captures the idea that we really do see ourselves how we want, this blind, euphoric painting we've done of ourselves, neat and quirky and real. but no, we're messes and in reality, i'm not sure anyone would root for me at all. i may be a villain, or at best the splintered, clingy B-list actor in his own biopic.
I think I'll break my no-responding rule for this one.
I figure watching myself in a movie, one I would refuse to release to the public no less, would parallel hearing my poems read out loud to me. A different perspective. I neither expect to hear nor agree with the possible contention that I am a good main character. The fact is that in my life, I am forced to be as main as it gets.
readzebra, I know I'm a mess. I look forward to perhaps reading this commented train of thought as a developed blog post of your own.
Thank you for the feedback; I appreciate it.
"...in my life i'm forced to be as main as it gets."
that's very true.
and yeah, i hear the different perspective part; it would probably be both humorous and tragic but oh so informative and mind-blowing if it could actually happen.
if you know you're a mess, then congratulations - took me 22 years to realize it. before that i was a mess of pride and ignorance, constantly sidestepping any indication that i wasn't the best at something. but i'm better now. and thank God.
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