So I was thinking,
Friday, October 21, 2011
it's harder to write when I'm happy. now that I write that<-- I remember I've written about this before. my blog frequency trends follow the emotional trends I've had trouble dealing with without writing about them. when I'm excited to just get out and DO, I do that instead of write about it.
there are so many sensations and thoughts I'd like to mull over and get down into form, but I can't even sit still for that long.
everything is going my way, and I can't even fathom why that is, outside of God's great love for me. I remember saying, God, you had better show me fairly soon why I'm better off this way, because right now I don't believe you.
ha! I love how "challenging" God only challenges yourself. in God's goodness, He separated me from what He knew I didn't need and sat with me through the pain of my own ignorance until I emerged, better for it, on the other side. and now I sit in a warm bedroom I share with my sister-slash-best friend across the hall from my brother-slash-best friend killing time until I mosey on over to one of two amazing jobs. my biggest worries concern which dream I will follow next, and my biggest expenses are funding my next adventures. I have never felt so whole, and I could never have imagined that so much independence would yield so much peace.
long story short, if you're wondering where I've been, it's because I'm too busy thinking about where I haven't. what a great age and time and weather and disposition to consider all of this during. In sifting through my blog in future years, I need this to be documented. right now, Lucy, you couldn't have asked for more.
oh! no reason not to fill you in. this is why I'm so happy:
-I have a pet turtle named Simon and ILOVEHIM (there he is now!)
-I have a job that lets me paint my nails
-my other job just promoted me
-I'm not going to school ever again and I'm not worse off for it! [cue Tayler cringing and my hearing about it later... love yooooou]
-I see New York and all its wonders (and all my buddies!) in two short weeks!
-I have plans to travel to ICELAND
-I just auditioned to be a Wheel of Fortune contestant!!!
-I'm moving back to New York in 6 months :)
-just thinking about the holidays makes me giddy
-I have two kicka$$ concerts in my near future
-I know of ways to get myself to Portland, Seattle, Alaska, and Denmark
-I mull over which tattoos to get in which order, and that feels cooooool
-my hair is red!
-and more, somewhere, somehow :)
Sunday, October 16, 2011
I remember exactly what I wrote one year ago today. That year has been the most dynamic in my life.
My favorite part of my life right now looks like a winding neighborhood road on a beautiful, cloudless fall day. My windows are down, my favorite song is playing, I just ended my work day, and my family is home. The best part is that this happens almost every single day.
I still find ruts--one best friend expressed that he didn't realize I do. And I don't either, because I'm usually too busy mentally remarking at how fortunate I am and how much freedom my future has.
The only rut that sticks is that I have no motivation to write and I don't know why that is. I'm hoping it's a season of life just like anything else.
Most days, I realize I'm still waving at a boat that's very close to disappearing over the horizon. From then on... smooth sailing, friends.
Posted by Lucy Doughty at 1:16 AM