Dearest

I am Pirsig when he remembers that he is Phaedrus.

I could have written the letter Virginia Woolf left her husband, or I will be able to, but I will not.

I have begun to chronicle this state in hopes that the productivity a case study spurs will distract me from

whatever it is, and I call this study "Monster"

and I wonder for how long I'll be able to distract myself.