Sunday, September 27, 2009

Physics

If a girl speeds toward a heart
at a constant rate of thirty-seven tears per week,
like a train pulled toward its destination
using different units and time,
how far is she from herself
when she falls into love?
And if a boy speeds toward the mind
at a constant rate of forty-three grins per day,
like a yellow-faced balloon smirking at its toddler
citing different motives and results,
how far is he from love
when he finds himself happy?

Through which tunnels do the smartest crawl
On which clouds do the loveliest float
Near which cross did the holiest hang
Year after year after year
Cradling hopes and dreams and reality
the latter striking all else dead.

My hands belong to him, him, and Him
my heart to them
my hopes to him
my dreams to him
my reality to Him.
What do I have
but the speeding train?

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Thought I'd Check In

Hello, all. I hope you're having a fantastic weekend. I'm a tad burned out and still exhausted, but tomorrows keep coming and I'm thankful for that. Could you help me out? I'm buried in the college application process and have hit a wee road block.

"What five words would you use to describe yourself?"

I don't know how to describe myself. I think they'd be best if they came from those who know me. Can you think of one?
*Apparently they're best when atypical--i.e. stay away from responsible, dependable, hard-working, etc...

I now pronounce this blog a think tank!

--comments haven't been emailed to me from Blogger lately...strange. Sorry it took so long to publish all of them!

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Promise Me

you will tell me the truth.

you will work towards removing yourself from such an emotionally abusive friendship.

you will use your best judgment.

you will stay my spirit.

you will try and save your money, too.

you will recognize that I try my very hardest.

you will reciprocate.

you will stay in touch.

you realize that I more than want to be here for you. I strive to.

Monday, August 10, 2009

Porcelain

soft consonants trickled from her lips
as though dead air's perfume.
delicate limbs placed deliberate dishes
on obedient stacks, one by one.
her chin crossed a shoulder,
eyes deep and pained.
syllables like orchestral chords
uttered acceptance.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

words fall through me/always fool me

I found some cool new people!

Smoke Signals
yaohong
teach us to love.
How to Live
Verbosity to Me
. . .meg. . .

Guess what? Tomorrow, Stephen Baker and I will turn two years of correspondence into there-you-are-in-front-of-me reality.

If 'there-you-are-in-front-of-me reality' weren't such a mouthful, it'd make a cool band name.

***

My heart hurt for real this evening. Physically instead of emotionally. But then I thought about it and realized it hurts a little bit in both senses.

I miss God.
I got really far away all of a sudden, and now my legs hurt from running back with such force.
It's the sort of burn one's happy to embrace.

Saturday, August 1, 2009

In case my blog title was no hint, I stick to my guns. [da duh chh]

"You know, I can't think of anyone else who hurt me so much that I made moves to willingly erase them from my life. But you did. Right before you said you're sorry, you miss me, and hate making enemies.

Tough."

...shame on me for loving you like a Pharisee. Shame on me for being content with not forgiving you, for being content with offering only earthly love. I have been redeemed more times than anyone who's not God can count. How dare I, though you're no prodigal son, refuse you due to pride, anger, and contempt. I have done away with these words. You do not treat me like a friend, but I will not treat you like an enemy. I forgive you.

- - -

[Aside from that, I wish I had more writing to offer you. I think once Literary Magazine starts up again, I'll catch on fire. I'm looking forward to it :).]

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Night Swimming

bare foot in front of bare foot
down to the edge of the dock.
toes glean the water's ripples,
rendering a nearby skimmer bug
unemployed.

the very same ripples turn moonbeams to serum
fawns to mirrored siblings
trees to towers.
the lake's boundaries never breached,
for the body knows its place.

nature's measure of silence flows freely as wind
always chirping, chattering, chiding
but she is not offended.
this new kind of quiet surrounds.
lonely is an impossible feat.