Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Age of Maturity?


I've been thinking...while wisdom may increase with years, maturity eventually reaches a standstill save the initial years of mental and social progression. I know many immature adults: in their lives, kids and friends. I'm sure you do too. So, then, through parental influence, environment, and the genes themselves, maturity in the end is all it will be.

This explains how little difference in age affects friendship. Twenty year old women will fall in love with thirty-seven year old men, sisters become best friends despite their ten year age difference, it just doesn't matter. The most productive conversations I've had have been with parents' friends. The older we get the less the difference seems. Ten and fifteen? Iffy. But twenty and twenty-five...no problem.

I wonder if I am trapped in my age. I'm just a little guy, but I have my own share of wonderments and observations...some of which develop into worthwhile posts. Once my lack of years is realized, opinions will become what they must. I don't forsee a change in my level of thought in the next ten years. Twenty, even. I understand changing views through years of experience, but not in acuteness or profoundness. I learn wonderful new things about people and places every day and approach them with the same earnestness, openness, keenness, and depth.

This here thought stemmed from my observations of the world: teens beyond their years and adults behind them.

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

A Combo of Sorts

As of today 35 people have died beknownst to me, including the VA Tech tragedy. The others were a student, a mother, and an uncle. I understand that death is part of life and happens every day. Why so close all of a sudden? Why so related to me and people I know? I don't think I overreact when I say it's been a spooky week.
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I have links on my three most respected blogs! This makes me very happy as writing is a recent thing for me, and the "impact" is unsuspected. Thank you all.

Jad, Flenker, Stephen, and Matt now have their own playlists. Considering Jad doesn't know I exist, well...hah. I'll think up a good comment to leave ASAP.
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Drumline practice today included drums and tracking. That's marching, for all you non-bandos. I got the chance to play bass and snare. I'm glad I did since I doubt I'll be behind a snare's carrier ever again.

Something I may not have shared: I love band. There is nothing like being part of a great line..listening to the synchronicity, letting every roll flow, feeling the tempo in my heels. Ah.

For all of the smirks this screen is receiving right now: that's okay. I embrace the geekiness.

The Thunder Spoke


lush leaves
bellies up
moving as one
with their wind
a storm is coming

stay inside
near the shuddering panes
tight in an old quilt
favorite brew in hand
the best ones last all night

sometimes sprinkles begin
and like a concerto's crescendo
fat drops make their way
to the relentless pavement
always bouncing back

to some a storm begins
at the first lightning's pierce
jagged in the clear sky
signaling the thunder
to steal the show

every strike strikes someplace
seldom does one find a life
but if it did, this quilted body,
a jumpstart would find solace
in the cozy veins, open wide

it is grade school
when one learns
lightning's gap
shows the way
to thunder's power

counting the seconds between
is it nearing?
is it fading?
a picture worth a thousand words
a second worth one mile

every slow rumble
leads to a crash
jaws clench, joints tighten
in anticipation
nothing is as empowering

as that boom
that shakes the house
rattles the salt shaker
lets us know
we are not alone

thunder passes
lightning dies
rain reduces
to a conclusive
pitter-patter

the mug is empty
the window foggy with breath
the rain cleansed
the lightning warned
the thunder spoke

Monday, April 16, 2007

Survey Says

survey borrowed from a random link...answers as of sunday night @ 9:30. few have changed.

Section 1 - Last 1s?
1. last beverage? double tall caramel macchiato
2. last phone call? leslie
3. last instant message? casey
4. last cd played? morning benders
5. last time you cried? today
6. last text message? savannah

Section 2 - Have You Ever:
1. dated someone twice? no
2. been cheated on? no
3. kissed someone & regretted it? no
4. lost someone special? yes
5. been depressed? of course
6. been drunk and threw up? nope

Section 3 - List 3 Favorite Colors
green, blue, black. preferably with metal flake.

Section 4 - This month have you
1. Made a new friend? yes
2. Fallen out of love? i haven't decided if it was love
3. Laughed until you cried? many times
4. Met someone who changed your life? don't they all?
5. Found out who your true friends were? step by step
6. Is there something you want to tell someone? many things
7. How many kids do you want to have? I'm not sure...more than one
8. Do you have any pets? no
9. Do you wanna change your name? no
10. What did you do for your last birthday? party at my house with close friends and family
11. What time did you wake up today? for good? 9:15 a.m.
12. What were you doing at midnight last night? talking
13. Name something you CANNOT wait for? an open weekend
14. Last time you saw your father? about thirty seconds ago
15. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? I wish aging a year didn't take a year
16. What are you listening to right now? the TV
17. Have you ever talked to Tom? my uncle? not for awhile
18. Have you ever talked about someone behind their back? worriedly
19. What’s the last piece of clothing you borrowed from anyone? sister's pink floyd tee
20. Who’s getting on your nerves right now? writer's block
21. Most visited webpage? does mine count? thesaurus.com. stephen's.
22. Coke or Pepsi? Coke
23. Have you kissed or been kissed by anyone in the past week? no
24. Mac or PC? Mac

Sunday, April 15, 2007

Misc.

Maybe a rut is a good thing. A rut is like a trench, right? And a trench protects soldiers from enemy fire. I'm thinking I'll hang out in this rut and do the best that I can.

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I really appreciate all readers and comments. If not for you, I wouldn't post at all.
All of my non-member friends: thanks for the face-to-face comments and anonymous musings.
For the two (that I know of) blogs that have me linked: I'm honored. I read you guys every day. "Love" is overused, but I'm pretty sure I love it.

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I'm gonna go write about the rain. Weather is surprisingly inspirational.

Saturday, April 14, 2007

Not So Hot

Remember that downward spiral? This time it's not about my own insecurities. My life loves testing what I can handle, and it's doing a great job this week.

I'm gonna go blast some music, jump up and down, maybe take a cold shower. I don't want to be here anymore, in this place.

I wish I could help you


I don't know what to do anymore.
When reasons for living are slim
Talk to me
I will tell you I would never be the same
Would you leave
If you knew I would forever cry myself to sleep
Would you leave
If you knew I would blame myself
Would you leave
If you knew that I was always here
Would you leave
If you knew you make my life better
Did you know you make lives better?

Don't leave.
The world will miss you.
I could help you
Let me help you.